as of right now, it is the fifth of january, 2015. tomorrow, i go back to school after what felt like one weekend, but was in reality seventeen days off. and let me tell you, along with millions of teenagers all around the world, i'm quite disappointed. however, on the 31st of december, 2014 i created a few new years resolutions, as i do every year, but one of them proves a bit harder than expected. i want to be happy.
what this means is not just smiling and laughing and occasionally spending time with my friends. this means being proud of myself and being happy with the person i'm becoming. this means enjoying every bit of this world. not waiting for the weekend, or summer break, or after school. this means being happy where i am and living in the moment. this means putting smiles on people's faces and doing what i want to do and being who i want to be. this means being healthy, eating good food, exercising, drinking lots of water. this means surrounding myself with people who bring me joy and being positive. this means trying new things and exploring this beautiful planet and meeting new people and going on adventures. this means being the me that i want to be.
and last night i discovered, as of right now, i'm not the me i want to be.
so, as i watched a little video by troye sivan that i've probably seen about five hundred times already, it finally hit me. if i want to be something, i have to create that something i want to be, and i have to become what i want. i can't wait for an opportunity to come my way or always put things off until tomorrow. i have to create myself and create the person who i want to be and i have to work hard. so, that's exactly what i'm doing.
i know that this blog doesn't seem much as of right now. i don't know if it ever will. but it's mine. and that's enough. i'm sick of creating things while trying to be somebody else. i've tried youtube, i've tried blogs. but every time i seem to just act as though i'm a person that i know i'm not. i want to try to impress. but i'm over that. so, this is me. in all honesty, i couldn't care less if this blog gets two followers or two thousand, as long as this blog really shows who i truly am, who i truly want to become, who i truly am becoming, and i hopefully inspire somebody a long the way.
i can't say exactly what will end up on this blog. whether it be music playlists or song lyrics or beauty or fashion or just simple writing of mine. but hopefully i will share something that is worth reading and that makes somebody smile. i hope i can become somebody who i am proud of, and who people around me are proud of. i don't know where 2015, or this blog, is going to take me. but i'm ready to find out. follow me a long the way i suppose?
lots of love,
x pia lucy
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